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9个月的儿子突然在睡眠中离世,他经历钻心苦痛,却最后发出这样催人泪下的祷词!

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On January 23rd 2016

2016年1月23日

I woke up early at the house

Went downstairs to spend

some time with the Lord

我在家很早醒来

下楼花时间和主亲近


I’ve been coming on three years

Since my son went home 

to be with the Lord

这样的时光已经有三年了

从我的儿子归回天家见主面


He was 9 months old

he didn’t wake up from his nap

The last three years had been

excruciating and pain

他只有9个月在沉睡中离开了

之前的三年是煎熬和痛苦


Everyone was in survival mode

It’s hard years

每一个人都尽力的去生存着

那些年太艰难了


When I woke up that morning

and spending time with the Lord

I was thinking about a recent song

有一天我早晨起来灵修

我想到最近的一首诗歌


about a song based out of Psalm 23

says I shall not want

so I decided to turn it on

基于诗篇23篇“我必不致缺乏”的歌

所以我决定播放它


I never really even thought

that much about Psalm 23

But I decided you know what

I think I’m going to open it up

and look at it you know

我从没有细想过诗篇23篇

但我想我要翻开它读一下


It’s one of those familiar passages

that we always know

But as I said you don’t want to

look at Psalm 23 afresh

connect with the reality of us shall not want

这是大家都非常熟悉的篇章

但你知道吗当我重新翻开它读的时候

播放上不至缺乏这首歌


As soon as I opened it up and

Having that song going on and

I’m reading Psalm 23 something happened

在我刚刚放出这首歌

看着诗篇23篇时 事情发生了


It was one of those rare moments

这是一个非常少有的时刻

That was more than

just a good quiet time

of feeding and getting

something from a verse

不只是好的灵修时间

去融入与从世界得到一些


but it was as if Jesus the shepherd

walked into the room

came by sat right next to me

and put His hand on my heart

而是仿佛耶稣这位牧羊人走进房间

祂走过来 坐在我旁边

把手放在我的心上


and I almost felt His invitation

as if I felt His invitation to 

let Him shepherd me

我几乎感受到了来自祂的邀请

像是祂想要让我被祂带领


I felt Him asking me saying

will you let me shepherd you

It was an interesting thought to me

我感到他在问我  你愿意让我牧养你吗

对我来说这是一个有趣的想法


Because in that moment the very

fact of Him asking it to me

was highlighting to me how I had been

that vulnerable to Him ministering

in to me for the last few years

因为那一刻祂问我的这句话

向我显示出了这段时间

我有多么的脆弱

 

regarding the loss of our child

the pain and the journey of carrying on

关于失去我们的孩子

关于疼痛与如何前行


when life and a lot of ways seems to stop

every verse I began to read

当生活方方面面都看似停滞

我所读的经文里的每一个字


it was as if He was speaking the verse

and explosions were going off in my heart

都像是他在和我说话

并且爆发在我的心里


I just began to think about the fact of

that it was Psalm 22 that preceded Psalm 23

我想到诗篇22篇在诗篇23篇之前

“my God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me.” 

我的神 我的神 祢为什么离弃我?


It bring us to 

“the Lord is my shepherd

I shall not want

它连接到:耶和华是我的牧者

我必不致缺乏


I begin to understand that sometimes

we go through those seasons in life

where we say “God where are You”

我开始明白

有时我们经历过一些时刻

我们会想 神啊你在哪


where everything inside of us is exposed

and it’s just raw, ugly

在那所有在我们里面的都被暴露出来

又生冷又丑陋

we are looking everywhere we can to

find some kind of stability and security

and a sense of control but He doesn’t let us

我们为了稳定、安全感和掌控感

寻遍了各处,但祂阻止了我们


He takes us from my “God, where are You”

to “theLord is my shepherd, I shall not want.”

它带着我们从 “ 神啊,你在哪?”

到了“耶和华是我的牧者,

我必不致缺乏。





I felt Him telling me in that moment

Corey, I want to be your shepherd

I’ve been shepherding you

我感到那一刻祂在告诉我

Corey,我想做你的牧者

我一直在牧养带领你


but I want to reveal Myself to you as shepherd

and I want to make you

a shepherd after my own heart

现在我想向你显现我是牧者

并且我想把你塑造成一位牧者


but you first got to be shepherded by Me

before I could shepherd through

但在我透过你去牧养前

第一步:你需要先被我牧养


“the Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want”

You are the fulfiller of every longing of

all stability, all security

“耶和华是我的牧者,我必不致缺乏”

祢是能满足一切需要的神

一切的稳定感和安全感


it’s not founded anything else but You

You are the fulfillment of all desire, all longing

除了在祢里面 再寻不到

祢是满足一切渴望 一切需求的神


But in this encounter I begin to feel His honor

The feel of honor for me is one and my family

在这个相遇里 我开始感到荣耀

为我和我的家庭感到荣耀

as ones to walk through tribulation

walk through a tribulation season

and we’re still there

尽管历尽苦难 走过艰难的岁月

而且我们还在这段艰难里

we are there, barely there but we’re there

还在这里 虽然已经淡去

却还在里面

I can feel heaven’s honor

for those who endure tribulation

I immediately though of Revelation 7

我可感觉到天堂的荣耀

在那些饱受苦难的人身上

这让我立即想到了启示录的第7章


Who are these in the white robes

the older ask John

Here’s I don’t know, only You know

这些穿白衣的是谁是从哪里来的

长老问约翰,我主,你知道


Because these are the ones

I love that phrase “the ones”

Come out of the great tribulation

因为他们就是那些人

“那些人”我真喜欢这词

是从大患难中出来的


They made their robes white

in the blood of the Lamb

and they are before the throne of God

they serve God day and night in His temple

曾用羔羊的血把衣裳洗白净了

所以他们在神宝座前

昼夜在祂殿中事奉祂


God dwells among them

The sun won’t strike them

The heat won’t strike them

坐宝座的要用帐幕覆庇他们

日头和炎热也必不伤害他们


That He says this phrase in Revelation 7

And the Lamb who is in the

midst of the throne will shepherd them

在启示录第7章还写道这一节

因为宝座中的羔羊必牧养他们


and lead them to living fountain of waters

and God will wipe away

every tear from their eyes

领他们到生命水的泉源

神也必擦去他们一切的眼泪


And in this encounter I just begin

to say to Jesus over and over

Shepherd me, lead me

在这一次的与主相遇中

我开始不住地说 耶稣啊

请覆庇我 牧养我 带领我


I begin just to throw away all my bravado

And courage carrying everything

and I just gave up and I just say

shepherd me, Jesus

我把我背负的一切逞强和一切勇气都放弃

然后说,请牧养我 耶稣





And even in heaven we see in Revelation 7

There’s still the stay the memory 

and trauma from the last season still on them

我们在启示录第7章看到

即使在天上 仍有曾经所带来的玷污

记忆和损伤 


and that even in heaven there seems

to be a process where God personally

addresses the pain

trauma and staying for the last season

在天堂像是会有一个步骤(过程)

神会除去他们曾经一切的伤痛

损伤和污秽


and in this holy encounter

the Lord began to speak to me this, Corey

在这一次圣洁的与主相遇中

主开始对我说话,祂说,Corey


this is what I’m going to do on that day

but I want to do it today to you

这是我在那一天要做的事

但我也要在今天为你做


I want to do it in this season to you

These are the ones

some of you have been barely

holding on through difficult seasons

我想在这个时期为你做

就是这些人

有些人很勉强地坚持经历这艰难的时期


difficult situations, but you’re still here

heaven says these are the ones

and Jesus Himself wants to

lead you to living fountains of waters

艰难的选择,但是你们还在

天堂里说,就是这些人


and Jesus Himself wants to lead

you to living fountains of waters

He wants to shepherd you

耶稣想要亲自领你到活水泉源旁

祂想牧养你


God wants to wipe away tears

Holy spirit releases your

healing anointing right now

神想要擦去你们一切的眼泪

圣灵 请赐下医治膏我们


Bring healing from trauma

Healing from pain

从受伤中带出医治

从疼痛中带出医治


Healing from betrayal

Healing from loneliness

从被人背叛的事件中

从孤独中带出医治


Shepherd us Jesus

耶稣 请牧养我们





I don’t know exactly how long 

this encounter lasted About an hour or so

我不知道这次相遇持续了多久

一小时左右


But it was as if every phrase of Psalm 23

exploded at my heart

但现在 诗篇23篇的每一节

都深深的扎在我的心里


Jesus putting His hand on my chest

on my heart

just speaking every phrase

耶稣把祂的手放在我的胸口

在我的心上对我说着每一节


every phrase exploding in my heart

and I just laid in that river of His love

每一句经文都震撼着我的心

让我躺卧在祂爱的河流里


as He washed me in His love

He told me, Corey

当祂用祂的爱洗涤我时

祂告诉我,Corey


I’m going to make you lie down

in green pastures asa shepherd

I’m going to make you

Corey, you need to be made

I said okay, Lord

我要让你躺卧在青草地上

我要去塑造你 你需要被我塑造

我说好 主


He says I want to take you to still waters

The place where you

could see your own reflection

祂说 我要领你去可安歇的水边

在那个地方你可以看到自己

反射出的模样


He takes us into those times

and those seasons of life

Where we do deep self-reflection

祂带着我们进入到那些艰难的时光

有一个深深的自省


and it’s in that place

and He restore our souls

and I just begin to cry out to Jesus

在那个地方 祂修复了我们的灵魂

我开始向主呼求 耶稣


restore my soul

restore my soul, Jesus

修复我的灵魂

修复我的灵魂 耶稣





He always takes us through

the valley of the shadow of death

Again I was so undone with the

connection between the tribulation of Psalm 22

祂总是带领我们行过死荫的幽谷

我是多么的不完整

比起诗篇22篇中的患难


that brings you to the

revelation of Psalm 23

Yeah, though I walk through

the valley of the shadow of death

I will fear no evil

诗篇23篇给了我启示

我虽然行过死荫的幽谷

也不怕遭害


For you are with me

Your rod and Your staff they comfort me

因为祢与我同在

祢的杖 祢的竿 都安慰我


This is, Corey

I’ve put you into a season tour

You’ve got to walk through it

祂说 Corey 我把你放在一个

祢必须经历的时期里


You can’t run

You can’t by pass it

Can’t short cut it

You got to walk through

你不能逃跑 也不能路过

不能抄近路 你必须去走过它


There are those seasons in life

Where it seems as if everything slows down

生命中就是会有这样的时期

好像什么都放缓一样


and no matter how fast

you want to get through it

it doesn’t move any faster

不论你多想快速的让它过去

它就是一点都不会加快


you experienced that

you feel the shadow of death

and the death itself is loss

is pain, trauma, difficult

你经历着 感受着死荫幽谷

它是死亡本身 是迷失 是疼痛

是创伤 是苦难


there’s that element

where you got to walk throug hit and

we can have hope and confidence

这些是你必须需要走过的路

我们要有盼望和信心


because the one who is shepherding us

went throughit before us

因为那牧养我们的耶稣

在我们以先也曾经历过


Trust in the Father as He went through

the valley of the shadow of death

We could trust Him

相信父 当祂在经过死荫幽谷的时候

我们要相信祂


No matter how fearful it gets

We are not alone

无论它有多令人恐惧

我们不是一个人


No matter how alone you

feel you are not alone

For He is with me

无论你感到多么的孤单

你都不是一个人

因为有他在身旁





David continues on in Psalm 23

He emphasizes the rod

and the staff of the shepherd

大卫继续在诗篇23篇里

强调了牧者的杖和竿 


Since this encounter in Psalm 23

It’s become evident of the use

the shepherd’s rodin my life

由于这是诗篇23篇的与主相遇

它就变成了我生命中

主用来牧养我的杖的证据


He disciplines those that He loves

and no matter what season of discipline

you’re going under going through

主所爱的祂必管教

不论你是在什么样的管教之下


I’m here to tell you

It’s actually asign that you’re a child

我想在这里告诉你

它说明你还是个孩子


and He loves you

and He wants you tobecome

a partaker of His holiness

祂爱你 希望你能有祂一部分的圣洁


So I’m in this encounter of feelings

I walk through the valley

所以我在这个相遇中

感受到尽管我经历死荫幽谷


He is a goodleader

He is a good shepherd

His rod and Hisstaff are comforting me

bringing me through

祂是一个好的带领者好的牧者

祂的杖 祂的竿 都安慰我 带领我


and I love the ending of Psalm

God brings you up and

He takes you up as you arecoming

up out of the valley of the shadow of death

我也喜欢诗篇23篇的结尾

神把你抬起带着你经历死荫幽谷


and He set you down

He set you at a table

He puts all your enemies on the other side

又把你放下为你摆设宴席

你把所有敌人放在另一边


He set you down at the table

barely made it to the table

He carries you to the table

祂让你坐在筵席前

艰难的到了桌前

祂带着你到了桌前


God, He takes oil

right there the presence of your enemies

神 在我敌人面前 祢用油膏了我的头


He takes the oil and He pours it

over your head down your body

to your feet and it flows it runs over

从头到脚 使我的福杯满溢


receive His oil today

the oil of anointing  the oil of healing

今天就接受祂的膏油吧

膏抹的油 医治的油


receive His oil

He is making your robes white in His blood

接受祂的膏油吧

祂用祂的血把你的衣裳洗白净了


He is putting you in His house

Shepherding you

祂把你放在祂的住所牧养你


Lord, let Your oil flow

Let Your oil flow Jesus

主啊 让这膏油倾倒出来

让这膏油倾倒出来耶稣





Let goodness and mercy follow us

All the days of our lives

Pour the oil out Jesus

我一生一世必有恩惠慈爱随着我

让这膏油倾倒出来耶稣


We lift our eyes to You now, Jesus

I’ll dwell in your house

all the days of my life, forever

我们现在定睛向你  耶稣

我且要住在耶和华的殿中直到永远


To say, God, I want to be in

Your presence all the days forever

我要说 主啊

我要在祢的同在里直到永远


Thank You for Your leadership in my life

You are the great shepherd

谢谢祢对我这一生的带领

祢是好牧人


You are my shepherd

Your leadership isbrilliant

祢是我的牧者

祢的带领何等奇妙





I love Your leadership, Jesus

I believe God is taking shepherds in this hour

我喜爱祢的带领

我相信神在带领着这一个小时


He is fashioning now according

to the heart of the Psalm 23 shepherd

祂正在给予造就

根据诗篇23篇的牧养


Let Him shepherd you

I’m going to ask you to raise up

Jeremiah 3:15 shepherds

According to my heart who would feed you

让祂牧养你

求祢兴起耶利米书三章十五节的牧者

我也必将合我心的牧者赐给你们


Father, take them through the

Psalm 23  Valley of shadow

and to the anointing of the spirit

父请带领他们来到诗篇23篇

从死荫幽谷到你的灵魂被膏抹